I should be happy that he's always there for you.
But every time I see you smile for him,or touch his hand it feel like a knife twisting my gut. And I should be happy that he makes you happy. But I can't help thinking that it should be us, together.

How can I forget you when you are my everything? How am I supposed to get over someone I've given my everything to?

I will always remember the way your eyes looked when you left
Your image will always be there in my mind
Your ghost will always stay in my heart
I know.....
You are never coming back
You are never coming home

"I hold to a simple philosophy: just assume everyone's a piece of crap and then be pleasantly surprised if you find anyone who ain't."

Why should you trust?

People can't be trusted. You put your faith in them and they will stab you in the back the first chance they get. Humans are lost and deviant by nature: They will always lie and hurt those who they profess to love the most, and do it without a second thought..

THIS INTRIGUES ME

What-if's and What-could-have-beens

Sometimes, we think of things that happened in the past, events of great importance to us.
And then we think of what we could have done to change things, to make them last.
We think of what could have been, if we just did this or that, If only I coulds.

But here's something we always forget: That these events define who and what we are:
That sometimes, these things are what they really should be.
And that we can always see them in the eye of our memories, and remember how perfect this one moment was.
Just remember, how shining and perfect this moment in time was, and how it felt, and see how this makes you, defines your existence,
your dreams and betters you.
Instead of trying to recapture the past, we should always look to the future.

Sometimes, saying good-bye is the right thing to do.

I've had a hell of a time these past two years. I fell in love with the girl of my dreams. And lost her. I lost my job and my sanity, and found
a new purpose in a new line of work, and regained my center, my equilibrium. Gained new friends and found old ones.

And now, I think I may be falling in love.

The sad part of it is, I'm really not sure if I really am falling for her or if I'm just using her as way to forget someone who I may not be totally over yet.

Yep, It has been, and still is, a crazy time.

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And now, time for a rant

Well, let's look at it this way.
I'm stuck in what may be a dead end job.
I have an unhealthy life-style.
I never get enough sleep.
I'm most often depressed.
The person I love the most in the world is with someone else.

And you think I'm doing all right?
Bloody everlasting hell.

The facts of rejection

Last night I got shot down.

I felt really bad about it. Then I remembered something that took me over a year to learn:

"Life goes on."

So it does, my child. So it does.