A goodbye to my lover

A goodbye to my lover

A story by TG Cid

The young man slowly stretched, yawned and sat up from the bed. Sleepily rubbing his eyes, he looked at the alarm clock on the desk near his bed. Checking the time, he found it to 9:30 in the evening. The young man arched his neck, and stretched again, before looking down on the sleeping figure lying beside him. A slight, sad smile curved over his lips as he gazed upon the wonder beside him, the figure of his lover. Yes, his lover. Not his girlfriend nor his wife, His lover. A secret, illicit affair that began as something else entirely. A friendship, mayhap. Staring, his eyes misted over as his thoughts drifted to the past……

Then suddenly, his thoughts were lost as he heard her voice beckoning, asking of him, in her most tender way : “What are you thinking, love?” He looked at her, with tears of sadness and a ghost of a smile on his lips, answered “I was thinking of you , love. Of you and forever.” “Silly.” Said his lover, smiling at him warmly, before sitting up on the bed, letting the covers slide off of her body as she cupped his tear-streaked face in her hands, “don’t think of the unknown. Think of our now.” His shoulders rocked with his sobs and she brought his head to her bosom, like the way one would comfort a crying child. She stroked his back with her tender touch and soothed him as he wept on her , weeping tears of desolation and loss.

As his sobs weakened, she reached for his face, a face which would forever haunt her dreams, and softly whispered in his ear, “think of me only and of how happy you made me these past months. Think of how we both have grown. And think of the beautiful future ahead of you.”

He opened his eyes and asked her simply “Did I really make you happy?”

“You did. So very much.”

“Then why end it this way?”

“Because it’s better this way. For both of us.”

He closed his eyes and asked her “How can it be better when we’re breaking each other’s hearts? How can it be better when we’re hurting each other like this? How?”

“Because we’d hurt each other more if we stay together. And I don’t want to hurt you more than I already have.”

He whispered in reply : "Then hurt me one last time." Before he swept forward and kissed her.

Keeping his lips on hers, he slowly pushed his lover back on the bed. Still kissing each other passionately, the young man swept his hands and removed the blanket covering the rest of his lover’s body whilst she ran her hands tenderly over her lover’s chest…… And soon the fires of passion consumed both as they consummated their vows of love for the very last time, all the while calling out each others names and speaking their words of love…...

And as the fires cooled down, they whispered to each other,

“Good bye, my lover, goodbye…..”

The Morning will come:

Hey!

I know this seems like the coward’s way, but leaving you while you slept was far easier than confronting you this morning. Don’t think badly of me, please, even if I know what happened between us would basically be my fault.

Why I kept the fact that I was already in a relationship from you when we began seeing each other is beyond me. I probably thought I could have my cake and eat it too. But I was wrong. So wrong. I thought I could control things but I was wrong. You see, as you fell in love with me, I fell in love with you too. And it was wrong because I already loved another….but it did not stop me from falling for you. Deeply.

So I now pray, my love, that you will find the happiness that I can never give you. I pray that you will find that special someone who will change your life and change your thoughts of sadness to happiness. And most of all, I pray for your well-being. Never forget that you will always have a special place in my heart. Forever.

I will always love you,

XXXXXX