Life sucks then you die

I'm pretty much drunk while I'm writing this piece, same as most of my other posts. So anybody who gets offended, fuck 'em.

My head hurts, my stomach burns. It feels again like the bad days, when she left. It pains me. I feel isolated, alone. And some days, I just want to die.

I need redemption. I need you back.

I need you.....

I wish you were here.....

A year older

Today, I'm officially a year older. I wish I could say that I'm wiser for all that has happened the past year, but unfortunately, that may not be the case. The past few months being a case in point. I still love someone who says I shouldn't love her. I keep on torturing myself with might-have-been's and should-have's.

I should stop but I can't. She's my drug, my existence, my being, my muse.

I'm fucked.

You left me in hell, darling.

You threw me away to rot.

You left me bleeding.

See the cross you left me with?

I'll be carrying this for the rest of my life.

I hope this makes you happy.

Den of Randomness

A month or so ago, I posted a link to a webforum. I've been promising myself to write a site review and Finally, here it is!

Http://www.forkheads.net

Forkheads.

A very...random site!

A forum that started off as a place to get game cheats and hentai has become something much more.It's certainly not a site for everyone: but it's still a place I'd recommend you to go.

Don't take my word for it though. Check it out.

Caught in the grip of crushing despair

It must make you very happy, doesn't it?
It must have made you laugh so hard.
To crush me must be very exciting.
To destroy me must be the achievement of your life.

You've won.....
And I shall step into the shadows now without complaint.

The joke called real life

"See, there were these two guys in a lunatic asylum... and one night, one night they decide they don't like living in an asylum any more. They decide they're going to escape! So, like, they get up onto the roof, and there, just across this narrow gap, they see the rooftops of the town, stretching away in the moon light... stretching away to freedom. Now, the first guy, he jumps right across with no problem. But his friend, his friend didn't dare make the leap. Y'see... Y'see, he's afraid of falling. So then, the first guy has an idea... He says "Hey! I have my flashlight with me! I'll shine it across the gap between the buildings. You can walk along the beam and join me!" B-but the second guy just shakes his head. He suh-says... He says "Wh-what do you think I am? Crazy? You'd turn it off when I was half way across!" -The Joker, "The Killing Joke"

Sometimes, I look around me and start thinking that the world is looking more and more like an insane asylum. Chalk it up to human nature that everyone focuses on things that don't make a lick of sense: people focus on stuff that isn't even what they really need.

Maybe we really are all crazy.... And we just hide it by laughing........

The Quest for Purpose

The past six months have been probably the most difficult time in my life. I lost my job and the most important person in my life. I've given up on one thing that used to define my life. I've contemplated ending everything. Well yesterday, as I watched the rain fall outside, I realized one thing: Life is stacked against you. But man never gives up: The fight's rigged but we can't give up. We don't know how.